Hold, before it falls

I never knew 
you needed me.
you were not okay
and I was busy.
You taught me 
sorry doesn't work out every time.
I never wanted to be like this
and now regret is what I bleed.

The charm of this world 
charmed me to hell.
The gloss of the game 
caught me to the universe.
I don't know 
how I messed it all up,
how our castle crumbled
as if it was made of some sort of paper.
I deserved to be blamed
and I accept all of them in your name.

Shape this thing as it was
when you were mine 
and we were the flaws
like the flaws were the beauty
inscribed in our fragmented hearts.
We were the strings of lyres,
which now are broken.
I was the moon and you were my shine
Now it's a moonless night.

I broke up the promises 
with honesty of Jesus.
I made the worst 
of the best deal ever.
To make you understand 
what you meant to me
I cursed the bond 
with soo much of dignity.
We build the fire out of woods
and burnt our own homes in dreams.

Please forgive me 
for giving arms in happiness
and leaving in disparity
like I couldn't 
see you bleeding.
I want to change this situation
but all I can do is hopelessly hope 
of a future brighter than ever
and we screaming the ultimate color.

I wanna be with you 
I wanna see you comin' through
piercing all these curtains
of despair, darkness and dirt..
and once again I promise to you
that I would be there for you.
This time I will mean everything I say.
This time nothing could charm me to sway.
This time I know that you are most to me 
and 
try to be some to you..

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