REFUSE, REBEL, REVOLT

I never knew  you needed me. you were not okay and I was busy. You taught me  sorry doesn't work out every time. I never wanted to be like this and now regret is what I bleed. The charm of this world  charmed me to hell. The gloss of the game  caught me to the universe. I don't know  how I messed it all up, how our castle crumbled as if it was made of some sort of paper. I deserved to be blamed and I accept all of them in your name. Shape this thing as it was when you were mine  and we were the flaws like the flaws were the beauty inscribed in our fragmented hearts. We were the strings of lyres, which now are broken. I was the moon and you were my shine Now it's a moonless night. I broke up the promises  with honesty of Jesus. I made the worst  of the best deal ever. To make you understand  what you meant to me I cursed the bond  with soo much of dignity. We build the fire out of woods and burnt our own homes in dreams. Please forgive me...

The proudest moment for my family was when God sent me, but who knows, It was an utter oath disguised as a beautiful bliss. My father calls me a lion, I am a soldier for my mother, Who can not play with barbies and my sister is always protected in my arms. The growing interest of mine, in bangles and beauty, was a danger sign or an early warning of fluidity. The allure of tincture, The charm of blush, The sharpness of kohl, The flawless french polish, hypnotised me to such an extent that I swayed in their way. The day I stumbled with my real self, I found I am a soul-less case Or a case-less soul. I tried all to persuade everybody present there, with assertions of my compact mind But their minds were more compact . The human who was once their lion was now a vulnerable vermin. A soldier turned into a prisoner cause his artificial womanhood  Was unbearable. Brother who once cherished his sisters and protected them in his arms, Those arms were retching now. He was left with people li...